He's Here!!!!!!

April 1, 2011; 7 lbs. 14 oz. 21 inches.

After 9 months of waiting and anticipation, our sweet little Gavin Christopher has arrived. He decided to come two weeks early so he caught mommy and daddy by surprise but we are so unbelievably happy he has joined our family. He is without a doubt the cutest blond haired, blue eyed angel I have ever seen. I just constantly stare at him in pure awe. I have accomplished a lot of things in my life but nothing has ever compared to this sweet little miracle I get to hold every day.

I have to admit, I have been so terrified of giving birth. We found out we were pregnant and I was so excited. But then the reality of what I was going to have to go through set in and I was like "What in the world was I thinking???" I am THE biggest wimp I know. I can't even handle throwing away disgusting trash, what makes me think I can actually give birth?? But the time came and I was in pure shock that IT was happening, that I forgot to even be scared about it. My water broke and my husband was dancing around the house singing "We're gonna have a baby!!" while I was screaming "I got water all over the sheets!! And I don't want to get in my car leaking like a water balloon!!" Ridiculous.

However, I can't act like I was complete champ. Epidurals are without a doubt the single greatest discovery since beer. My contractions started and I was like "Well that wasn't THAT bad." Then the REAL contractions started coming and I was making my nurse PROMISE me my epidural would last the entire labor because I was not cut out for this. I was seriously threatening her. So they sent in the true nectar of the Gods and all was well in my world. I was having the time of my life in that delivery room. I actually asked my anesthesiologist if he was the son of God because he works miracles. I was in the middle of labor, about to give birth to my son and was seriously having a conversation with my doctor about cows. (Don't ask. That's a whole other story for another day.) I was ready to bring Gavin into this world and he could not have come fast enough. I was in labor for 7 1/2 hours and then BAM!

Everything happened so fast and before I knew it, it was 8:30 a.m. the next morning and my son was in my arms. The first thing I noticed was his blond hair. He has a head full of it and it is the most beautiful golden tone. I swear I have never seen that shade before. It is the first of its kind, made especially for my beautiful baby boy.

And so now we have entered the world of complete lack of sleep, diaper change after diaper change and trying to master the art of breast feeding. My care of appearance has completely wilted away. I just wear what is comfortable and avoid mirrors at all costs. I went to Wal-mart today and just threw on tennis shoes and put my hair up in a pony tail and walked out the door. It was only Wal-mart. I practically fit in with crowd.

Chad has been without a doubt the most wonderful daddy since the minute Gavin took his first breath. He gets up with me at night for feedings, he changes diapers, he washes clothes. He keeps asking me when I am going to pump so he can feed Gavin. He is just amazing. I have known all along that he has been a wonderful husband but his fatherly skills even surpass that. I truly do not know what I would do without him.

And then there is Nana. I called her at 12:30 a.m. and told her we were on the way to the hospital. At 9:00 a.m. the next day, 30 minutes after Gavin arrived, she landed in Oklahoma City and was headed our way. I don't know how we will function when she leaves. Chad keeps telling her to just move in with us. She won't admit it but I see the contemplation in her eyes. I think my dad is scared he will never see her again.

So our little family that was started 11 months ago to the day has been extended by one. We are completely clueless as to what we are doing but there is no lack of love where Gavin is concerned. So we really can't screw it up too bad. I look forward to keeping you up to date on all of his daily happenings and especially for everyone to meet him. I know without a doubt he will melt your heart just like he melts mine.

My Life. My Loves.